I now totally understand how a lot of mothers lose themselves after having children. Life as I knew it ended after I had Kadima. I stopped bothering about myself and my world literally revolved around her.
Although I am gradually paying attention to myself, she still dominates my consciousness. Over the bank holiday weekend, I was invited to a barbecue and I was more concerned about what Kadima is going to wear.
The old me would be thinking of how I had to dress to stand out but I’m happy just being a plain old Jane while my baby takes the spot. That will have to change because I intend to commit to taking care of myself as I really don’t want to lose myself in the motherhood game.
I’m not just looking to getting back to my old self but I want to discover my purpose, I want to truly step into my purpose to learn who I really am, chase my dreams and make them come true.
Photos by Mimi & Gabriel.